December 9, 2007 - Sunday - 1:12pm
DISAPPOINTED WITH MYSELF
“I try to go on like I never knew you. I’m awake but my world is half asleep. I pray for this heart to be unbroken, but without you all I’m going to be is incomplete.” (Incomplete by Backstreetboys) This is the senti-song I’m listening right now…so perfect for my senti-mode!
After everything I’ve been through, I thought I’ve become stronger and better, but I’m still the same. I may have somehow matured, but I realized that I’m still the person who I hated when it came to love. Head-over-heels, sensitive and attention-seeker; I really thought I changed, but I guess I did not. It’s just so disappointing.
“Some things are there but it feels as if they’re not. There are feelings you want to go away but you know for a fact that you’re still holding on to it.”