25 November 2009


It's been so long since I last cried. And these tears right now means to me more than any tears I shed during my last 21 years of existence. This hurt I'm feeling right now is more than any hurt I've felt from the past. My heart is badly broken more than words could explain.

It breaks my heart seeing her smile. It breaks my heart hearing her voice on my mind. It breaks my heart knowing what she had to go through. It breaks my heart thinking the good and the bad times we've been through. It breaks my heart wanting to see her, hug her and just tell her how much I miss the old days, how much I miss her, and just how much I love her.

I don't want to tell her how much my hear is breaking or how much sadness I'm feeling. I just want to be strong, and even stronger so that I can just give my strength to her. No, I just wanna give my life for her.

They say long distance relationship needs constant communication in order to survive. Our relationship contradicts that line. Because no matter the distance and the loss of communication, things for me is just the same. If something changed, that would be that my love grew stronger. And if something is certain, that would be that I never gave up and will never give up. 

This love surpasses any love I have given out and I'm so stupid for realizing it just now. 
This is the great love. And It's for her.